Well this is awkward. Hi.
I’ll go again. Hi, this is where my first blog entry should be, but isn’t. It isn’t because of a number of reasons which we both know – unless you’re not one of my lecturers, in which case I will get you up to speed in person if it is relevant. It feels a little strange to begin a professional placement blog with an account of a bereavement.
The main reason that I can’t write about placement – besides the aforementioned elephant in the room – is that I don’t have a placement provider. I don’t have a placement provider because I’ve been quite confused for quite some time. But I’m getting ahead of myself.
For as long as I can remember I have wanted to make films. I grew up loving the cinema and watching any behind-the-scenes documentaries I could get my hands on. Anything I couldn’t find out about in a documentary I would try and figure out on my own – Roger Rabbit had me stumped for years.
Film kind of took a backseat for a few years after primary school – it wasn’t a viable career option because I was in Moray, and Moray was not exactly renowned for its thriving film industry. The unspoken advice was very much do something you know you can do. I got fairly lucky – I also grew up with a passion for reading. So I read as much as I could, and through that learned about narrative and storytelling. It also doesn’t hurt that I’m a visual thinker – when I read a book, the words eventually fade out and I see the story as an image.
In my teens I went off the idea of being a novelist. My attention span seemed to be at an all time low – I later found out that this was ADD – and I didn’t think I could commit to writing anything. I was, however, really interested in music; at this point it was 2007 and emo music was at its peak. And I was a massive emo. So I spent a lot more time watching the rock music channels in my room – this is where I really got to grips with music videos; of course I’d seen some in my childhood but I had never really focused on them. Ever since then I have been really invested in how music videos are created – another visual thinker trick is I see a music video when I hear certain music. There’s no reason and it’s not dependant on whether I like the song, it just happens. I’m really interested in figuring out how to put the random images in my mind out into the world.
There’s just one problem; I have no idea who to talk to or where to go.
This has been my train of thought since before summer; I know a bit about how film may or may not work, I feel like I’m at least a little informed, but I have never made anything. I know very little beyond watching music videos and feature films – specifically horror film – and I know absolutely nothing about what is going on in Glasgow. I know nothing, in fact, about Scotland’s film industry; in Moray there is no arts funding, never mind any film work, so I have no reference point at all. I think that’s the main reason that I don’t have a placement provider. I have no idea who to talk to.